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2+ years later.
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Every now and again I visit my DA page, just to save something I might like in the rare instances I'm ever bothered to login.
Nothing too interesting to really see here, just felt like posting for the first time in ages.
Nothing too interesting to really see here, just felt like posting for the first time in ages.
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I don't do this often anymore
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But I almost can't be arsed to do so anymore at all besides download images I like, but in my long bit away from posting another journal DA has implemented a forced advertisement and ad blocker detection system telling me to get rid of it?
This and their inability to adhere to their own ToS while letting blatantly sexual and pornographic images slide while other entries get deleted is something I'll never understand around here.
DA used to get me inspired, used to be my go to place to be social and find new things, but ever since 5+ years past this place isn't even worth it anymore.
I'd like to post some stories here but I'm afraid they'd be deleted and I'd be banned or some stupid shit.
This and their inability to adhere to their own ToS while letting blatantly sexual and pornographic images slide while other entries get deleted is something I'll never understand around here.
DA used to get me inspired, used to be my go to place to be social and find new things, but ever since 5+ years past this place isn't even worth it anymore.
I'd like to post some stories here but I'm afraid they'd be deleted and I'd be banned or some stupid shit.
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Been over a year now
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Since my last journal entry, to be honest I'm not sure why I come here anymore, besides to favorite things but I'm not writing or drawing anymore at the moment so the purpose of my having an account here doesn't seem to serve any point.
However to anybody that bothered to read anything from the last journal, I want to say things have gotten better but it I think I just keep needlessly complicating things in my life.
My girlfriend of 8 years got to visit me and stay the entire summer and went back before the first of this month, it's been over 2 weeks since she's been back and so I was happy to see her again and spend more time with her, but car issues muddied things up and now it's catching up to me ever faster than I had hoped.
Long story short a few weeks into her arrival my car died due to engine lock up, have had family members drive me to and from work, costing lots of gas, not many jobs available in my area, no car to go anywhere, money going nowhere and not getting enough of it.
It's been a mess.
The only good thing I can take away from this year was seeing my girlfriend again, other than that, it's been a bad year.
However to anybody that bothered to read anything from the last journal, I want to say things have gotten better but it I think I just keep needlessly complicating things in my life.
My girlfriend of 8 years got to visit me and stay the entire summer and went back before the first of this month, it's been over 2 weeks since she's been back and so I was happy to see her again and spend more time with her, but car issues muddied things up and now it's catching up to me ever faster than I had hoped.
Long story short a few weeks into her arrival my car died due to engine lock up, have had family members drive me to and from work, costing lots of gas, not many jobs available in my area, no car to go anywhere, money going nowhere and not getting enough of it.
It's been a mess.
The only good thing I can take away from this year was seeing my girlfriend again, other than that, it's been a bad year.
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Just a little over 2 months
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Close to a year after my last journal entry, I'm not really sure why I even bother anymore.
I don't frequent the site as much as I used to as an artist, but it's not so much my artistic skills that have prevented me from coming here (since I don't really draw anymore, I'm more of a writer), it's more that I don't trust this site's admins whatsoever.
I don't frequent the site as much as I used to as an artist, but it's not so much my artistic skills that have prevented me from coming here (since I don't really draw anymore, I'm more of a writer), it's more that I don't trust this site's admins whatsoever.
Really I'm thinking of deleting my account but I dunno, I've been a member of this site for years and it would be saddening to leave everything behind, but it's not like I have any real friends on here so nothing much would truly be missed.
Anyway, for those that happen to be reading my journal (not sure that anybody cares but...), much has changed in the last year since the last journal.
Things have been successfully fixed with my girlfriend and I'm expecting a visit from her next month, this will be our first face to face meeting in 8 years since we've known each other, our relationship has been entirely online and not many people can say they've carried on such a relationship for that long of a period without having physically met their partner.
But with that part of my life going well I've since moved from my previous apartment with my father to a newer one that has more space, unfortunately that also came with a bigger price tag and thus more problems money wise.
Since the closure of Hostess Brands my father has been out of a job, coming this November will have been a full year since he's worked and only a 4 months, from now since starting my new job after also being out for about 7 months; both being lazy and unwilling to work, but after financial burdens have been placed on us I'm glad to have gotten a job when I can despite it being only part time.
I am afraid however that if he doesn't find a job soon that we'll find ourselves out of this apartment and living with my mother and my step father, nobody else is going to take us (since my father has basically burned every friendship bridge he's created).
But I'm working and trying to get us some added income, but it won't be enough, it's times like these I wish I had a paypal so I could accept donations.
But despite life having taken both a turn for the better and simultaneously for the worst, I guess what we can take from this is that I'm still alive, I don't come to this site anymore, my father isn't working and my girlfriend along with her mother, baby uncle and 4 year old aunt are making their visit next month and me with no money.
And here I've strayed away from what I originally intended to say, that I'll primarily be a writer contributing my works to this site and my slightly forgotten account on SoFurry.
I hope to be at least a small accomplished writer in the future, self published if I have to but at least I'll have done something with my life at age 24, turning 25 this next month.
Then again i doubt anybody will have read this much less cared to have read a wall of text, but if you have I hope you found it entertaining and at least showed that you cared to listen to my woes.
Stay classy my fellow deviants.
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Life, love and stories
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It's only been a few months since my last journal entry but for some reason it feels like it's been longer than that so I guess I should say something anyway on here.
Near the end of June I went on a week long trip of sorts with my father and his sister, my aunt, to New Mexico, the drive was interesting in the fact that I allowed myself to be exposed to hours of non-stop driving and clean fresh air in the country side.
We had made our first stop of the day/night in some small town in Oklahoma and ate at a place called El Paisano's, excellent food, after that we stayed at a local Super 8 motel and took off for New Mexico in the morning and finally ended up in Albuquerque after overshooting it by at least 47 miles, give or take a mile or two.
We also went to the Sandia Peak Ski & Tramway which was fun as hell and ate at the restaurant at the bottom of the tram which also had excellent food, after which we went back to a different motel, La Quinta Inn in a different city for about 4 days or so; we also made it to Carlsbad Caverns National Park and took a crap ton of pictures inside the caves, too bad my aunt couldn't walk through it due to her bad knees.
I can't remember much else that we did after that but the ride back home was just as entertaining as it was going there, I really hope to go back to New Mexico some day because I had such a blast and I didn't think I would.
Coming back from the trip I spent more time with my girlfriend whom I also still kept in touch with during the trip, about a week later from the trip or so my girlfriend had told me that she has decided to inform her mother about our relationship with one another, something we both had kept from her besides telling her that we were friends and not involved with each other.
This started a dark 3 to 4 week period in which she was practically forced to break up with me and we attempted to continue on with the relationship as nothing but friends, but it was so awkward and uncomfortable as I tried to get back with her and see that we didn't have to be broken up just keep the relationship between us, but luckily her life issues intervened and a friend of hers dealt a rather heavy blow to her and she sought me to comfort her.
With this we reconciled and ultimately got back together after I helped her through her emotions and leaving her friend.
After that I also moved to a new apartment with my father and in a better location, although with the move I was also reminded of my adult responsibilities after turning 24 last month, I don't have a job and have been out of one for almost a year, due to both the economy and my extreme laziness and lack of motivation to get another job.
I've made promises that I'm determined to try and keep, those being getting said job and second to finally go see my girlfriend of 8 years in the flesh instead of through a web cam on Skype, yeah we've kept our relationship going for 8 long years online and not met once, but I'll see her before the year is out (after all the world does end in December doesn't it?).
But aside from life issues I've also been considering trying to bring my 11 year story project to some sort of fruition, after an incoherent and plot hole ridden first story that nobody but one friend saw during my freshman and sophomore years of high school, and an incomplete failed second story during my junior and senior years, I've repeatedly tried to get my characters off of their biography rosters and onto actual pages.
Unfortunately due to my lazy nature most of this renewal has never gotten past re-written biographies and redone character statistics after multiple redos, I think I'm about to go through with it and come out with at least a few chapters before the year is out.
I've also been trying to work on an original story of sorts set in the Fallout universe of post apocalyptic video games, featuring new locations and a cast consisting of almost nobody but children in adult situations, forced to live on their own after either their parents abandoned them or their deaths, the story was called Army of Men, out of irony that the cast was of course children ranging from ages 1 to 17 and with the main character being a 9 year old.
Eventually I'll get my life together and set everything into motion to strike out on my own and with my girlfriend.
Near the end of June I went on a week long trip of sorts with my father and his sister, my aunt, to New Mexico, the drive was interesting in the fact that I allowed myself to be exposed to hours of non-stop driving and clean fresh air in the country side.
We had made our first stop of the day/night in some small town in Oklahoma and ate at a place called El Paisano's, excellent food, after that we stayed at a local Super 8 motel and took off for New Mexico in the morning and finally ended up in Albuquerque after overshooting it by at least 47 miles, give or take a mile or two.
We also went to the Sandia Peak Ski & Tramway which was fun as hell and ate at the restaurant at the bottom of the tram which also had excellent food, after which we went back to a different motel, La Quinta Inn in a different city for about 4 days or so; we also made it to Carlsbad Caverns National Park and took a crap ton of pictures inside the caves, too bad my aunt couldn't walk through it due to her bad knees.
I can't remember much else that we did after that but the ride back home was just as entertaining as it was going there, I really hope to go back to New Mexico some day because I had such a blast and I didn't think I would.
Coming back from the trip I spent more time with my girlfriend whom I also still kept in touch with during the trip, about a week later from the trip or so my girlfriend had told me that she has decided to inform her mother about our relationship with one another, something we both had kept from her besides telling her that we were friends and not involved with each other.
This started a dark 3 to 4 week period in which she was practically forced to break up with me and we attempted to continue on with the relationship as nothing but friends, but it was so awkward and uncomfortable as I tried to get back with her and see that we didn't have to be broken up just keep the relationship between us, but luckily her life issues intervened and a friend of hers dealt a rather heavy blow to her and she sought me to comfort her.
With this we reconciled and ultimately got back together after I helped her through her emotions and leaving her friend.
After that I also moved to a new apartment with my father and in a better location, although with the move I was also reminded of my adult responsibilities after turning 24 last month, I don't have a job and have been out of one for almost a year, due to both the economy and my extreme laziness and lack of motivation to get another job.
I've made promises that I'm determined to try and keep, those being getting said job and second to finally go see my girlfriend of 8 years in the flesh instead of through a web cam on Skype, yeah we've kept our relationship going for 8 long years online and not met once, but I'll see her before the year is out (after all the world does end in December doesn't it?).
But aside from life issues I've also been considering trying to bring my 11 year story project to some sort of fruition, after an incoherent and plot hole ridden first story that nobody but one friend saw during my freshman and sophomore years of high school, and an incomplete failed second story during my junior and senior years, I've repeatedly tried to get my characters off of their biography rosters and onto actual pages.
Unfortunately due to my lazy nature most of this renewal has never gotten past re-written biographies and redone character statistics after multiple redos, I think I'm about to go through with it and come out with at least a few chapters before the year is out.
I've also been trying to work on an original story of sorts set in the Fallout universe of post apocalyptic video games, featuring new locations and a cast consisting of almost nobody but children in adult situations, forced to live on their own after either their parents abandoned them or their deaths, the story was called Army of Men, out of irony that the cast was of course children ranging from ages 1 to 17 and with the main character being a 9 year old.
Eventually I'll get my life together and set everything into motion to strike out on my own and with my girlfriend.
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